I hadn’t even asked the question and He had already answered it.
I didn’t need to part my lips because He already knew it all together.
“God, I don’t even know what to do with all this sin.” That was the thought that popped into my head and that was it. That was all it took- just a thought.
Cast it on Jesus, He said. Cast it on Jesus.
There are moments in my life that are so thick, so raw, and they terrify me. These moments when my sin has just completely consumed me, when I feel so far from Eden. Like it was never even there.
But that’s the answer He gives in those moments:
Cast them on Jesus.
Because that is all we need to hear. That is the only answer we need. Jesus.
There are times where I want to gently place my sin on Jesus. Or to seal it up in a nice envelope and leave it on Jesus’ doorstep, thinking “I don’t want to disturb him.” But instead God says cast your sins upon Jesus.
Cast is not a gentle word. It is a word of force, of violence. To cast stones. To cast off chains. Not to roll them gently but to throw them. To throw your sins as far as you can get them away from yourself and where they land is on Jesus.
And they more than land there, they are absolved there. They are paid for there. They are forgotten there.
That is the amazing thing about grace. That is the thing that I can’t understand. That is the reason why the gospel does not make sense to me all too often.
That is why grace is so radical. That is why grace is so different. Because God did not say, “cast your sins away from you; keep your distance, groveling on your hands and knees, distraught, unable to show your face.” He does not say that.
Shame is solely a game of the world.
Instead, He was hung on a tree, put there by people like me, who were me. Not by the outlaws, but by the ones who live their lives by the law. He was shamed so that we could be shameless; bruised so that we could be blessed; forsaken so that we could be forgiven.
So, when sin tempts you to despair, when the darkness in you is paralyzing, look to your Wounded Healer- not to your sin.
Cast them on Jesus.
© January 13, 2013. Alyssa Bell.